I did fine with the fainting

•October 5, 2019 • Leave a Comment

My daughter had a fainting spell. No biggie. Until it happens several times.

I did fine at first. Kids faint, get sick break bones, etc.

Making a cardiology apt for my daughter was a trigger for me. I never wanted this for her. This was her father’s cross to bear not hers’.

On the other hand, we will finally know how much of her father she inherited. She won’t have the not knowing hanging over her head anymore.

She is scared. Why wouldn’t she be? Her doctor mentioned that she may have to give up powerlifting…….you could have heard a pin drop. She spent two months of her life watching her dad fight for his life because of his genetics.

It just sucks.


Tired. Confession 576

•October 1, 2019 • Leave a Comment

Tired of doing the work of three people.

Tired of coming home to a tired and crabby teenager (chill out-I know I will miss it someday. Today is not that day).

Tired of ‘Being On” all the time.

I want to be held and I want to cry.

That is all.


•September 30, 2019 • 3 Comments

My kids will always be the top priority in my life. That means:

I will work my ass off at work to make sure I can provide food and shelter for them.

I will put aside friends/extended family/and yes, even men, in lieu of quality time with my kids.

I will not overextend myself with time, money, energy, and sleep for anyone (within reason).

If you cannot respect that……….

Bye bitch.

Kharma, you beautiful woman you!!

•September 26, 2019 • 1 Comment

The fabulous saga of kharma continues from a former workplace.

I must give a shout out to LinkedIn notifications for alerting me that my nemesis was trolling my employment status. Kharma gave her a healthy dose of life earlier this year when she was dealt the same hand that she dealt me.

Even more delightful to me is the information that I received today that she had been committed. Judge all you want. This poor excuse for a manager was the most evil person I have ever come across and yes, I WILL delight in the fact that she is getting the dues that she so richly deserves.

I will not apologize for being happy about this turn of events. Some people deserve the worst. She is one of them.

Reduced to physiology

•September 24, 2019 • Leave a Comment

Food poisoning is a great way to be reminded that we control nothing.

When you wake up on your bathroom floor after counting tiles in between tossing your toenails up, its a real mental boost.

You control nothing. Your biology takes over and you can’t do a thing about it until your body decides otherwise.

Life goals don’t matter. People don’t matter.

The plumbing and your body are all that matters.

Pretty humiliating.

Exhibit A

•September 21, 2019 • 4 Comments

It will always be you.

All we want out of life

•September 19, 2019 • Leave a Comment

You can list possessions, wealth, power as a list of what we want to be happy out of life.

But truly, all anyone really wants is to be loved in spite of our trainwreck.

To be loved no matter what a whirlpool of suck you are.

To be cherished because you are uniquely you.

Thats what I want. Someone to look me in the eye and tell me ‘I love YOU’…