My heart aches.
I hate waiting. Especially for medical test results. I haven’t been this exhausted in a long time. I haven’t slept really in a few days. Just light dozing.
Really, I am just ready to know. I just want to face it and deal with it. The flip side would be if the doctor really did make a mistake (FYI-I will be livid after I am relieved). Maybe I will just be very relieved. No one wants their kid to have cancer. No one.
I think that would truly just take every last ounce of fight that I have left. I put on a decent show of having it together, but I really don’t.
Half the time I struggle to get out of bed everyday.
God, please………..please let this doctor be a complete idiot……just this once……….let her be so wrong………..
