So many emotions from the last week.

Work has been a roller coaster. There is finally light at the end of the tunnel. The torch has been passed and I have begun releasing all of those responsibilities to the new person.

The problem with being a work-A-holic is that when that stops, you start to feel.

All the emotions that you have been stuffing, start to bubble up. The loneliness. The hurt.

Through all of that, I received my first lease renewal. I have officially lived in this place longer than any place since I left my ex husband.

It is bittersweet. I never wanted to be alone this long. I miss the physical contact of the person that I love, but it isn’t worth the tremendous cost to my emotions. Sometimes I wonder why God can be so damn cruel. He dangled a carrot in front of me and it turns out to be wax fruit.

Maybe that is my punishment for leaving my ex husband. A sentence of heartache and loneliness.

Goodluck doll. You’ll need it.

~ by goddess4ever on April 21, 2019.

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