My first unmarried wedding anniversary.
I would have been married 18 years.
I did not think it would hurt this much.
I got two beautiful kids out of the deal…..
But I lost who I am. I lost a man who loved and cherished his family; who loved and cherished me. I lost a mother-in-law whose loss I was never able to grieve. My children had to grow up faster than they should have.
I feel like I wasted 18 years of my life fighting for a marriage that should have ended years ago.
My heart aches……
My heart misses having a partner. Someone to laugh with. Someone to put their arms around me while I watched the sunset over our property. Someone who reminds me that I left the light on in the kitchen on my way to bed.
My heart aches……
