Happy Thanksgiving

Being alone is hard.

Today, after 20 years, I had Thanksgiving with my family. My parents.

It was hard.

Those who know me, understand how hard.

So many things have not moved. So many things are still exactly the same. Same dishes. Same silverware. Same stenciling in the kitchen. Too much. Too real. I choked back the panic as my father said grace using the same words and the same tone as he has for 38 years.

Conversation stayed fairly light and sarcastic.

I haven’t been able to relax since. Still reminding myself that its ok. Still reminding myself that I have free will. I love my family, but sometimes you just can’t go back home.

~ by goddess4ever on November 23, 2018.

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