Not easy like Sunday morning.

A lot of conversations have been had regarding new relationships and how women trust a new man following a long ex relationship.

Gut feelings, are primal visceral reactions to so many many cues that I always tell people to go with their gut. There is a reason it is telling you that something is wrong. It isnt always dark and sinister but there IS always a reason.

Anyone who dates me has the unpleasant task of overcoming my gut feelings. Attached to my gut feeling is one of my unfortunate gifts to humanity, the ability to read human energy fields. Yes, it is unfortunate. We all have baggage. We all have things we don’t want to share with people. Unfortunately, I can pick up on those things immediately.

I say unfortunately because there is a reason people don’t share baggage. Its humiliating, embarrassing, or emotionally raw. It is self preservation. Nothing to be ashamed of certainly.

Whoever chooses to get past the gut feelings, will have to get past the baggage detection. He will have to understand that I need to know that that baggage is not a threat to me. That it doesn’t contain ulterior motives.

It isn’t that I have to know every detail of a person, I promise. I need to know that they are sincere. The last guy I dated for real, loved me, I know he did. But he wasn’t ready to go ‘all in’. And I knew it the second that I saw him last. It was an amazing visit, but I knew when he left that I would probably never see him again. He just wasn’t ready.

He was the first person that I could look forward to a future with after my separation and divorce. I know in my heart of hearts that he will make an awesome husband to an incredibly lucky woman.

So I am not easy. Not even close. More of a disaster with boobs. I have the capacity to love with everything I am. I just have to get someone past all my weirdness first.

~ by goddess4ever on November 12, 2018.

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