Knowing something is right, doesn’t make it easier.

Even when you finally reach the mental acceptance point of moving on, you still feel the pain of doing it.

It may be the rightest thing you’ll ever do, but it will still hurt like a bitch.

It may be a relationship that you have just hoped that you had, it still sucks to understand that it is finished. Or never was to begin with.

The hole in my heart is still very real and still very painful. Soon it will join the two other very deep scars left in my heart tissue. This one is by far the most painful. What I felt like I had, I felt more deeply than any love I have ever experienced. There is nothing wrong with that.

It was truly a gift to experience and I will always hold that in my deepest heart of hearts. It WAS truly perfect. It WAS magic. It WAS everything. Nothing can take that away from me. Not very many people are allowed to experience such a thing.

God let me experience it. Maybe I wasn’t strong enough to be able to keep it, idk. He let me have a taste and that was everything.

~ by goddess4ever on July 6, 2018.

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