Two years ago today, my mother in law passed away unexpectedly. Two years ago, my life was turned completely upside down as my husband’s life and health spiraled down at break neck speeds.
I never really got to grieve my mother in law’s death. My husband had a massive heart attack the following day. Her funeral, I was told, was beautiful. I was in a waiting room while my husband was on the operating room table with his chest cracked open.
I didn’t know that I would never see either one of them again. My husband physically survived, but his personality was gone. The person that I knew was beyond gone.
Now I sit in an armchair in my rental home. Looking out the window and thinking over the last two years. So much loss. So much heartache. These are not cherished anniversaries. I miss my mother in law. I miss the ex-husband that I used to know.
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